I am an easily frustrated person. Anyone who has spend a decent amount of time with me (outside of work) knows this without a doubt.
Most often I become frustrated with time...something that is completely out of my control. I like having structure to my routine. I enjoy finishing things that I have to do as quickly as I can so that I can have as much free time as possible. I breathe a sigh of relief when I'm on time for work.
Just this afternoon a few things happened that if I hadn't taken a step back and several deep breaths would have freaked me out.
Yesterday morning my car wouldn't start. Everything was solved. Grandpa jumped my car and it worked fine...until this afternoon.
I came home during my lunch break so that I could work out (though the workout was abbreviated because I was so hot and exhausted from the heat) and when I got in my car to go back to work the car wouldn't start.
Thankfully Daniel was over because he'd just cut the grass so he took me to work. Mom and Grandpa are taking my car to some place (the name escapes me at the moment) tonight while I'm at work to get the battery checked out.
Then as Daniel was driving me over I realized that the key to the white van was no longer in my pants pocket. As of right now I do not know where it is.
I arrived back at Streetside starting to get a little frazzled because I had five pick ups to do and potentially no way of doing them and even if there was a spare van key lying around I had to use up precious time to find it.
I won't bore you and relate every detail of my route this afternoon but I will tell you the breaking point. That occurred when I got up stairs in one of the cardiology offices that I picked up at and saw six longs (the pans we use) displayed on the table. This eating area was upstairs and I had to go down a hallway with a cart as well. I started to freak out then, especially when I noticed that a couple of the holder things were our spares (and last resorts) and would not fit with the others.
I had to take a step back at that point and pray that God would give me grace to finish my pick ups and everything I had to do before I sent to my other job.
I wondered at first what God was trying to teach me. I think I know now.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
On having too much free time
My birthday is this Wednesday. I have most of the week off (probably the whole week off) from both of my jobs. Techically I could say that it's because of my birthday but...well, I just happened to be born on a holiday.
As long as I live in America I will most likely never have to work on my birthday.
Usually I enjoy having time off. All through last semester I kept looking forward to my Sundays...the one day of the week where I had no school work to do at all and could relax and feel guilt free. Even more so I looked forward to the end of the semester when not only would I be done with college and all the rules but I could live my life without the "threat" of school work looming over my head.
Did I enjoy the free time? Oh yes.
Did I have second thoughts about taking a second job and possibly losing my evening free time? kind of...yes
Do I wish that my two jobs would let me have more hours so that I wouldn't be bored out of my mind when I wasn't working (and sometimes when I am working)? Yes!
Every so often during days off I try to think though the things that I need to do...like I did before. I've even tried to create a to do list.
That effort failed.
There simply isn't that much that I "have" to do. Come to think of it...there really isn't anything that I "have to do.
I'm taking the Praxis II test sometime in the fall and I have the social studies and language arts study guides so that I could study for those tests. I find it hard to get motivated to do that. I've enjoyed my vacation from studies so far and don't really want to get out there and do research in order to make up my own study guides.
Have you seen some of the questions? Here, I'll give you the first one and you tell me if you woudl be motivated to study for a test with questions like this?
Rather than having to pay for costly fortifications, armies, and navies, this country enjoyed free protection provided by nature. Furthermore, for more than a century, British subjects manned and paid for the costly navy that policed and defended the Atlantic and provided this country cost-free added security.
The country that benefited from the added security referred to above was which of the following?
(A) Germany
(B) Holland
(C) Sweden
(D) United States
I read this question to my mother. She looked at me, gave the answer and said "Even I knew the answer to that one!"
Of course, my mother underestimates her intelligence but still. She hasn't been in school for a while and doesn't deal in the history realm.
I'm starting to ramble here because I'm getting bored (the obvious result of too much time on my hands and not having any money to go do something with)
As long as I live in America I will most likely never have to work on my birthday.
Usually I enjoy having time off. All through last semester I kept looking forward to my Sundays...the one day of the week where I had no school work to do at all and could relax and feel guilt free. Even more so I looked forward to the end of the semester when not only would I be done with college and all the rules but I could live my life without the "threat" of school work looming over my head.
Did I enjoy the free time? Oh yes.
Did I have second thoughts about taking a second job and possibly losing my evening free time? kind of...yes
Do I wish that my two jobs would let me have more hours so that I wouldn't be bored out of my mind when I wasn't working (and sometimes when I am working)? Yes!
Every so often during days off I try to think though the things that I need to do...like I did before. I've even tried to create a to do list.
That effort failed.
There simply isn't that much that I "have" to do. Come to think of it...there really isn't anything that I "have to do.
I'm taking the Praxis II test sometime in the fall and I have the social studies and language arts study guides so that I could study for those tests. I find it hard to get motivated to do that. I've enjoyed my vacation from studies so far and don't really want to get out there and do research in order to make up my own study guides.
Have you seen some of the questions? Here, I'll give you the first one and you tell me if you woudl be motivated to study for a test with questions like this?
Rather than having to pay for costly fortifications, armies, and navies, this country enjoyed free protection provided by nature. Furthermore, for more than a century, British subjects manned and paid for the costly navy that policed and defended the Atlantic and provided this country cost-free added security.
The country that benefited from the added security referred to above was which of the following?
(A) Germany
(B) Holland
(C) Sweden
(D) United States
I read this question to my mother. She looked at me, gave the answer and said "Even I knew the answer to that one!"
Of course, my mother underestimates her intelligence but still. She hasn't been in school for a while and doesn't deal in the history realm.
I'm starting to ramble here because I'm getting bored (the obvious result of too much time on my hands and not having any money to go do something with)
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